Woooo~

Confessions.

2011-04-12T00:55:00.003+08:00

Years ago you told me that i was cheapskate, didn't know how to dress up, was always pulling myself down over small matters, always being controlled by my parents.

Ever since we broke up, i made a promise to myself that i would change and then i would get you back again.

I worked so hard to change. And now that i've changed, you told me that i have other problems. All i ever did change was for myself, and for you.

Then it has come to me that, all that i have changed, it didn't mean anything anymore. From the start it might have even been possible that you never once did fall for me. I wished i had a clock to rewind time back to the past, i really do. But that's just fantasy.

It's not that i'm being desperate, i just hate being alone for such a long time.

You won't see this, but i'll confess, i really still do miss you.

Confessions.

2011-04-12T00:55:00.001+08:00

Years ago you told me that i was cheapskate, didn't know how to dress up, was always pulling myself down over small matters, always being controlled by my parents.

Ever since we broke up, i made a promise to myself that i would change and then i would get you back again.

And now that i've changed, you told me that i have other problems. All i ever did change was for myself, and for you.

It's not that i'm being desperate, i just hate being alone for such a long time.

You won't see this, but i'll confess, i really still do miss you.

Go on girl.

2011-03-27T22:58:00.007+08:00

Tonight was special.

It was a run I had to complete no matter what.

What i thought was sweat turned out to be tears.

I've been running for so long, tearing.

I couldn't stop, because if i did, i knew the pain in my heart would be unbearable.

I ran with all my might.

Suddenly i stopped running.

The pain and the tears stopped too.

I was finally too tired to carry on with this anymore.

If you ever read this.

You don't need me to be there for you anymore, good friends and an awesome boyfriend is all you need.

This is my farewell.

Me.

2010-12-28T02:19:00.002+08:00

All i ever could do was to try and move on. And yet i've met up with more and more hurdles. I want to believe in god this time. Please spare me from all these, because i no longer have the strength to make it through alone. I'm tired the way i am right now. I'm tired of trying so hard and the only thing i'm only getting in return is heartaches. All i ever could do, was to see from far, praying that you would keep them safe.

Life.

2010-03-06T00:42:00.004+08:00

Year 2010. Everything's not going right in my life, at all. What happened during secondary school, it's most likely happening again, great. I used to have strength to fight on, but now, I'm tired. I just can muster up neither strength nor courage. I was happy when you said "Hey friend", "Brother", really. Laughing together, doing stupid things. But now it's over. Even after being serious to have this friendship, I didn't lie, cheat, what so ever. Put in my best to make everything turn out right. It still comes down to this. I'm just not cut out for these things. Forget all about it, because I no longer can trust. Even when i'm being asked to help, i put in my 100% effort to make it work out, and if goes wrong, i get scolded, if it goes right, i still get scolded for not doing it better or sooner. Even if one day you find out you misunderstood me, it can't go back to how it used to be anymore. You have no idea to what extend that i'm feeling right now, how hard it is for me to type all these. Thanks for being my good friend for a year, for making my life more colourful. Sincere thanks from the bottom of my heart. One day you might just see this post. My last post for you.

Stressed

2010-01-27T20:39:00.003+08:00

Just as the title says, stress. I'M STRESS. I REALLY AM. Examinations, family issues, money issues, relationship issues. What more can i fucking ask for. I really can't study anymore. I'm tired. I want to go somewhere quiet. Really. Someone, just take me far away from here please. ):

My fked up life before 18.

2010-01-25T21:18:00.008+08:00

ya hi guys, apparently i've not been updating the blog again. Well ya, been rather lazy recently. Went to st. james last last sat but ya could'nt go in cos of some reasons that are deemed racist. So ya, made friends with one clique that couldn't go in either. then we went to tanjong pagar together to enter TABOO. YA. GAY CLUB. but wtf la. just go only. END UP. I CANNOT GO IN OSO. " As long as your birthday is anywhere in the month of january, you are allowed to, but since it's on nov. Sorry. " F*** YOU. WAIT FOR MY BIRTHDAY I SURE COME BACK FIND YOU. Either way, quite a good thing that i didn't go in because i had to take care of Jeremias. He came out in after going in for half and hour and got drunk already. From an innocent guy, turn naughty. Power. Come out saw a cat and wanted to f*** it. What can i say. LOL. Well ya, on to next thing. After i see how my brother drive the car, I don't have any more interest in taking car. So i'm going for bike license instead. (: Although my parents don't allow, but ya. I promise i'll drive safely. Recently, been stressed out, projects and exams are coming. Damn. Either way, i've totally got no mood to blog.

Just some random photos of the events that happened recently.

All this while i've just been trying to catch the moon ain't I. ):

Thanks for everything.

2009-12-27T23:08:00.004+08:00

Today, you just made me realise that a leopard will probably never be able to change its spots. Once a liar, you will always be known as a liar no matter how much you change.

Today, thought it through. Because of one relationship, i get greedy for more.

Today, I tell myself for the very last time that i'm not handsome, smart or whatever. I'm never good in anything. So stop deceiving myself.

Today, I ask myself, who am i actually smiling for. Cut the false pretence. Your smile ain't nice anyway.

Today, I wished hard, that i would be that boy i used to be, dumb, immature, whatever. Not having any worries, being a good son.

Today, I told myself, it's about time i stop trying, because i'll never be good at anything even if i give it my 200%. I ain't talented.

Things going through my head right now, stop, no more, it's over.

I tell people that i'm one of a kind, i'm the best, but no. I suck. Because i'm Nicholas Tan Sen Jian.

I can type all these out to show everyone, i'm not embarrassed that people will laugh when they see this, because i know it's the truth and there's no point in hiding.

You truely made me realise that i've been deceiving myself all this while.

I don't want to smile anymore. I'm really tired.. ):

Thanks for everything you once done for me, for i am grateful, you gave my life a whole different prospect. Now it's time i go back to who i once used to be.

Blah.

2009-12-26T23:25:00.004+08:00

Woke up at 9 today to go to work, as usual cook and cook. Then ya i've been told that i will be punished by Louis tomorrow BECAUSE I FORGET TO THROW RUBBISH. SUPERVISOR SAY HE CLOSE BOTH EYE SO NOW MY FAULT. ME AGAINST THE WORLD ISSIT. LOL. Right either way, quite busy today, Wang Dike keep asking me to look towards the imperial kitchen restaurant because there's a damn hot sexy girl there. Well don't have to ask the obvious, OBVIOUSLY I DIDN'T LOOK AT THAT DIRECTION. And there's this crazy girl that smses you at 3 in the morning TO SMILE. HOW TO SMILE WHEN I'M SLEEPING. LOL. =x

THE BEST CHEF YOU CAN EVER FIND HAHA.

SWEET!

2009-12-22T23:44:00.003+08:00

HI PEEPS. I DID MY LIP PIERCING. LIKE FINALLY. AND ONE DAY AFTER IT WAS DONE. MY PARENTS INSIST THAT I TAKE IT OUT. HAHA! PIERCINGS ARE FUN. Hopefully there won't be any infection. (: Did it at Primitive Tattoo. Supposedly we were going to wait for 5 mins because they said they would be back in 5 minutes. ENDED UP WAITING FOR 40+ MINS. Sorry to say, but i feel their service are quite terrible? LOL. EITHER WAY I DON'T CARE. I GOT WHAT I WANTED. HAHA. AND. AND. AND BITCH, ALTHOUGH YOU WERE GIVING ME SO MUCH PRESSURE BEFORE EVERYTHING, THANKS ANYWAY FOR ACCOMPANYING ME HAHA. MY VIDEO IS STILL WITH YOU, PLEASE SEND ME ASAP. THANK YOU. :D

SMILE BIG BIG. :D LIFE WILL GET BETTER. SO SMILE HAHAA SMILE SMILE SMILE.

SORRY FOR MY RETARDED LOOKING FACE HAHA.

Untitled

2009-12-10T22:00:00.003+08:00

Ok garena officially sucks. No more garena. 3 days left to study for the first common test and yet i've yet to start. Great. Not in the mood, was never in the mood & will never be in the mood to study. Tests are crap. Maths is crap. So is physics. Why would you even want to apply inverse differentiation to working life. That's bullshittt. Oh and i saw this keyboard warrior on jere's blog by the name of anonymous~. Lol i really love keyboard warriors. They are entertaining to the max. They don't think before they tag. Yes, Anonymous, if you are seeing this. I hope you learn. Because i have a feeling its you. Just stop sticking to your computer chair, and get the hell out of your house to socialize. Stop locking yourself up in your cyberworld and get a life. (: Next thing, tomorrow i'm getting that stupid lip piercing because i promised that stupid Ruijun. Asshole. No more good food buahbye. (: I'm scared of tomorrow. What if it looks even sucky and my parents are sure to nag when they see it and what if i can't take care of it properly. But, who cares!? Money paid, Blood wasted, why bother taking it out. (: And oh Thaijin we promised to go out drink someday ok! I'll remember this promise! (: Ok off i go. Going to try and get some knowledge into my brain.

God damn it, i don't know why i'm afraid of talking to you. But i really wish to talk to you! ):

SIMRANJEET SINGH

2009-12-09T18:01:00.002+08:00

THANKS LA EH BUDDY. THIS POST IS JUST FOR YOU. GOT ***** DON'T WANT FRIEND ALREADY LAH LOL. CAN ACTUALLY PANGSEH ME ! (Y) YOU THE BEST I EVER HAD LA. LOL. I DOUBT YOUR EVEN HOME YET BECAUSE MABYE YOUR'RE JUST ACCOMPANYING ***** TO HAVE DINNER. ASK YOU DINNER WITH ME, DON'T WANT. NICE LAH YOU.

Shortlived Dreams

2009-12-09T10:25:00.002+08:00

Decided to sleep early yesterday, however i couldn't. Things of the past went through my mind, what have i been doing all this while. I'm tired, really tired. I wish i could stop with the fake smiles. I don't want to deceive myself anymore. I want to be the boy i once was, never once did care about his image, how people thought about him, carefree. I'd rather be someone without any confidence. I hate myself now. Is it that fun to make use of me? You made me realise a long time ago that i was just a stepping stone for people to get up when they have fallen. You told me you were great, people are sure to love you. Yeah fuck it. I'm not good in anything. No matter how much i try, it's useless. However you did raise my confidence in doing things and then threw in all on the ground. Both used to tell me that they will always be there for me at my darkest moment, but thanks where were you people in the end. You two threw it on the ground too.

God, i'm tired. Please change me back to the boy i once was. One that did not have any problems to think of everyday.

Mugging

2009-12-08T11:30:00.003+08:00

Hi guys. CT are just a week away, and here i am, stoning at the computer, unable to study when im supposed to. Beginning to think of having fun even before i knew when the CT's are held. Wanting to dye my hair maroon, have a lip piercing, mabye a tattoo. But i'm a good boy, i try not to hurt my parents. So. No tattoo i guess. (: Either way, that idiot HO RUIJUN forced me to get my lip piercing this friday and i somehow gave him my word LOL. Anyway i'm late for school nowwwww. Update later peeps. Cya!

I've somehow decided to try my best. Even if i lose, at least i know i tried.

Wanted.

2009-12-05T23:43:00.007+08:00

MOST WANTED - TEO KIN YEW, AVEN (UNKNOWN IDENTITY)

CHARGES - TOO MANY TO COUNT

PENALTY - INSTANT DEATH

Wanted Criminal - Mr f**k face Tham Rong Shang

Charges - Change of gender: Supposedly to be a female.

False accusations of people stealing his property

Irritating Teacherr voice

HIS F**K FACE MOST IMPORTANT

Penalty - Just die. Let someone new enter this world.

Wanted criminal - Sulaiman San.

Charges - Rape

Gangfight

Beating up a female lecturer

Scolding f**k you early morning at lecturer

Countless attempts of suicide

Possession of dangerous weapons

Highly contagious rare mental breakdown disorder syndrome (MBDS)

Flicking of cigarette butts at innocent people

Rare DragonBoat Disorder (DBD)

Vengeful Spirit Stun At Sight Syndrome (VSSASS)

Unable to walk like a normal human being, have to swing arms wide

WAN WAN WAN WAN WAN OW OW OW OW OW OW

Penalty - A PLACE IN HELL

Don't take it too serious ok guys? (:

Skip Class Or Not To?

2009-12-05T23:17:00.011+08:00

Louis DDR 1.

DDR2.

King lim AKA uncle lim.

Ok slacked at ELP thinking if we should go to class or skip class. So decided to just take some random photos. Uncle lim's the new addition to our wacky class. If i remembered, just around two weeks of joining the class, he started to become from innocent & quiet to crazy and i dunno. Either way, welcum UNCLE LIM! (: and don't go about showing off about bikes ok! HAHA.

I just love this class to the max. (:

Twenteen Bird-day

2009-12-05T23:01:00.016+08:00

Guess you can say we love playing with the trees? LOL.

Sulaiman's Twenteen birdday. Went to PS to celebrate his birdday. Watched the ninja assasin. Some parts were funny. (: Love it when the head gets sliced into half ^^. Man bought his japanese dag!------ger! for 99 dollars if i rmb. Go home confirm sharpen use as weapon. Then slacked outside awhile and took some photos. (:

Happy twenteen bird-day suchaiman. You were the best i ever had haha! (:

Presentation

2009-12-05T18:27:00.013+08:00

Had Communication Skills presentation. And yea it was really fun. Rushed the advertisment poster the night before the presentation. :D And took photos after the presentation. This is class ME0905 AND I AM THE CLASS REPRESENTATIVE SO RESPECT ME. :D

This is what you define f**k face. LOL.

Common tests are coming and i've yet to start studying anything. Great. Hopefully someday i can pick up the mood to study. Everything is going downhill lately. Oh well, remain a positive attitude and everything will be just fine. (: And ya, although there are many differences in this class such as quarrels, misunderstandings, communication problems. But yeah, it's the one and only class with a bunch of idiots in it. Especially that guy. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. The one that does really stupid and insane things, but what he does always gives us a laugh. Without him, i guess the class would probably dead quiet. I love you Sulaiman and you know it. HAHA.

Revive.

2009-12-05T17:46:00.015+08:00

I'm back. Finally decided to do something about this rotting blog, either delete it or update it. So yeah, why not update it. Right photos at the bottom. Hanged out with dylan, clement and thaijin at anchor point to give dylan a birthday celebration. Ate at the Hong Kong cafe, made lots of noise, people sitting at the next table even had ask us to shh. What a disgrace. And it's all because of thaijin's crazy laugher and clement's and dylan's jokes that made her do so. Thinking back, we have already known each for at least 11 years already right! (: It's amazing how we still keep in touch after such a long time. Seriously hope that this friendship between will last always. I mean it. :D I just love you guys. (L) LOL.

Went outside and kept taking all types of different pictures using thaijin's camera. Ha!

Dylan wanted to leave early because of his soccer match. Told him nothing much would happen at the start, don't believe. Lol. Oh oh and one reason i was able to go and eat with them was because I WAS FIRED BY AH LONG, NEWSTEAD TOSHIBA. WHICH STUPID COMPANY WOULD HIRE 40+ PROMOTERS TO SELL LAPTOPS AT SUCH A SMALL BOOTH U TELL ME. AH LONG. I WORK FOR YOU FOR AT LEAST 5 SHOWS ALREADY. YOU KNOW I HARDLY DISAPPOINT YOU. BUT YET, YOU JUST HAD TO DISAPPOINT ME BY TELLING ME I DON'T HAVE TO COME THE NEXT DAY. YOU DA BEST LA. I MIGHT AS WELL WORK FOR AH PAUL. STILL HAVE THE NERVE TO TELL ME, "I hire you guys is for you to earn money, not for my sake." I WAS TRYING RIGHT. SO MANY PROMOTERS HOW TO EVEN GET ONE CUSTOMER. Forget it. That was the last time i worked under you. Now no more. Bye Ah Long. You the best. \m/

2009-10-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

Hii guys i'm back. (: i know it's been alittle while since i blogged. Holidays + work = No time for blogging. Oh well. A few things happened over the holidays.

1) Went to playclub.

2) Went to St. James.

3) Went to work at pronto in Great World City.

4) Went for Secondary Class meet up at Marina Barrage.

5) Went to Weijie chalet and got freaking drunk.

6) Got to see some bloooody terrible results.

7) Learnt the word Ma Dai!

8) Worked at it fair.

9) Mixed vodka, rum, whiskey, jim bean n more.

Ah whatever. I have no motivation to blog. Bye.

2009-08-29T00:22:00.000+08:00

Went to fish and co. at park mall today to celebrate thaijin's birthday with dylan, clement, ying zhou and weili. Someone's birthday so dua pai, must let the whole world know one lo. After that we went to the arcade downstairs to play the dunk machine. Pair with clement, end up lose. Ok anyway i really wish you a happy 17th birthday. We know each other for like how long alr? 11 years?

More of the photos at facebook.

It's just not working out like how it used to be.

2009-08-05T21:44:00.000+08:00

Hi guys! (: oh well i know it's been quite awhile since i last blog. It's because i have nothing to blog about. Either way, had fun yesterday at the 'zoo'. We got to hold this snake which is damn cool. haha. Here's some pictures (: Anyway what's wrong with being botak? Why is everyone giving strange looks? I know i look like a freaking little kid la. Happy? But at least i dared. YOU DARE ANOT?

Well while we were taking photos, the snake somehow decided to take a dump on man's leg. so obviously i push it away. So there's this patch of white thing on his jeans. (:

The three botaks! (:

Life is somehow much relaxing as how it used to when we were together. I'm just going to carry on with my life, you should too. Since you like it so much.

2009-07-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

There's no reason why i should be sad. Instead i feel much happier and relaxed with you no longer around. Stop wasting your time smsing me and calling me already. Go study for your n levels.

Life will always go on.

2009-07-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

Examinations are over, obviously crap results. Anyway wanna say happy birthday to Yiwen and Song Qi. Happy birthday! (: and another half hour it's Biying's birthday. Happy birthday in advance! (: Gonna get some rest nite peeps~

2009-07-05T01:13:00.000+08:00

To you, Hia di kia, mai sad. Life is full of possibilities and setbacks. One setback is not going to bring your (: down. To me, your always the cheerful guy. If you need help, you can find me by all means, or not, us. We'll do our best to help you, for sure. (:

Cheer up man!

2009-07-02T10:34:00.000+08:00

E-learning week because of one more week extension. Well, was supposed to log in to the school system to do some work, but obviously i didn't. Scanned msn to see who is actually online doing it, NO ONE. Then today once again mistaken tutorial date to be today but actually it was yesterday. So forget it. This is meaningless for me-.- Hopefully i can study one day...

2009-06-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

Back from man's house. Well guess can say learnt "a little" haha. Anyway dad went down to buy food and guess what happened. He saw an ambulance parked at the curb, 2 nurses in full suit, which means masks and all, escorting a mother and son into the ambulance and leaving quitely without turing the siren on. So what could it possibly be?

SWINE FLU IS IN REDHILL.

SPEECHLESS SPEECHLESS.

Number of singapore citizens infected: 315.

It's getting very bad.

Oh well this just probably means less going out.

You captured my heart and threw it on the floor.

After all that happened,

no matter how glamorous or cute you are,

i've seen your true colours,

and it's tainted in black colour.

Nothing you do will make me feel that you're an angel.

2009-06-24T19:33:00.000+08:00

Broken Promises

If you feel that lying to me was preventing me from getting angry, you are so wrong.

Each and everytime i think about it, it just makes my blood boil.

I hope you know who you are.

Currently at hougang point mac, "studying". Oh well, hopefull can achieve something today.

2009-06-23T21:54:00.000+08:00

5 more days and the holidays are coming to an end. Right after that is the common test week, and i have not been studying at all. When the mood is not there for me, it's just impossible for me. Haha. Seriously i got to start mugging for it! Off to Sulaiman's house for autocad tomorrow.

It's high tide baby~

Is this worth fighting for

You're worth fighting for
As I face the crowd and take a bow
This time its up to you
Time is up for me
Cause I've been biting my tongue for far too long
I know that I'm too blame
Burst into flames (you're beautiful)
You're worth fighting for
I'm worth fighting for (don't say goodbye)
You're worth fighting for

Woah ohh
Woah ohh
I apologize for the summertime
Woah ohh
Woah ohh
I apologize for the summertime

Is this worth fighting for
Are you worth fighting for
As I face the crowd and take a bow
This time its up to you
Time is up for me
Cause I've been biting my tongue for far too long
I know that I'm too blame
Burst into flames (you're beautiful)
You're worth fighting for
We're worth fighting for
Say goodbye
(You're worth fighting for)

Woah ohh
Woah ohh
I apologize for the summertime
Woah ohh
Woah ohh
I apologize for the summertime

Sing for you
Sing for you
Sing for you

Woah ohh
Woah ohh
I apologize for the summertime
Woah ohh
Woah ohh
I apologize for the summertime

I'll never forget you
This is my only choice
You'll never forgive me
I'd die and wait for you

2009-06-23T02:21:00.001+08:00

Cloud attack!

Oh Hi!

It's currently 4.42 now and i'm updating the blog. Drinking cans of beer, been wondering how bad life is for many people that i know especially mom and grandpa. Was bathing when this thought suddenly flashed through my mind, mom has never truely enjoyed herself for a long time. She's always painstakingly working hard to keep up with the family's expenses, so much so that her health was neglected. Until recently she starts having health problems which makes me really feel lost, being unable to soothe her pain, not knowing what to do. Not only that, mom has always been trying her best to fork out time to spend with grandpa. Seriously, who wouldn't pity an old man staying in a house alone, excluding the maid. An old man that is pratically staring at the walls from monday to sunday, with no one going over to accompany him, chat with him alittle. Mom has not been out socialising with her friends in a long time, a really long time. I really want to talk to grandpa, it's just that he's unable to communicate well in the recent years and at the same time i want to ease mom's pain and burden. I seriously feel useless. I can't sleep at all.

Ok bloody time check. It's 6.23 and i still can't get any sleep. -.- this is really wtf. Someone save me please!

2009-06-20T01:27:00.000+08:00

Been quite awhile since i last blogged. Oh well, school is the same, life sucks. Holidays now and working at the IT fair was lousier than the previous one as there wasn't much sales. Common tests coming just after the holidays. 29 is the day im going to die again, Calculus AKA A.maths Test. Woots. Met up witf BFFAE yesterday at mac to "study" but oh well. Least i got to meet up with her after a long time. LOL. Ask me come out study, yet keep asking me questions, how to study you tell me? After that went back home to put my stuff and headed for school to have CCA. CCA's getting slightly heated up than the previous few lessons. Went out to the National Library to "STUDY" again. Coincidentally, saw Louis and T2 when i came out of the MRT. Supposedly we were to meet at 1.30. Actually time that everyone meet, 4. "Studied" till, 6. After that, took MRT to little india to Muksin spar during his boxing lesson. After that, well, headed back home. Anyway nothing much to post, so gonna catch up on some rest. cya peeps. And oh ya, here's this thing i just received in msn. "He's dazzled by my cuteness" & "he's feeling EGGCITED now" OMG. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. SUPER BHB GIRL.

Don't know what's been bugging you recently, but just wanted to tell you that no matter what, don't let things pull down your mood, no matter what.

Like i said, tomorrow will be a better day.

Don't let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of you doing it.

The time will pass anyway, so might as well put that passing time to the best possible use.

Don't think you would understand what i mean, but you know who you are.

Hope you can get over it soon.

2009-06-15T18:13:00.000+08:00

The League - My Love

Ohh Ohh Ohh ...
She's so sexy, so cool
She's the baddest girl I've seen
I'm wondering why
I only see her in my dreams
The love of my life, she's the only one for me
My L-O-V-E Ooh
My L-O-V-E

Baby you're my shooting star
Ride with me and I'll take you far
(Explore the world)
And back around
You lift me up and you hold me down
(Hold the crown)
And you make this team
There's no couple like this, king and queen
There's no other couple like, you and me
You're the girl of my dreams, my everything

I love this feelin,
Your love is healing
I need it
I breathe it
No way I'd ever leave it
I'm so into you, don't what I'd do
You're love is so true
It's just me and my boo

Ohh
She's so sexy, so cool
She's the baddest girl I've seen
I'm wondering why
I only see her in my dreams
The love of my life, she's the only one for me
My L-O-V-E Ooh
My L-O-V-E

I never thought I'd find another love like this
I'll never forget the first time we kissed (we kissed)
Your body against mine
The touch of your skin, yours lips
Such a beautiful kiss (such a beautiful kiss)

My L-O-V-E, she elevate me
Ahe fly and so free, was blind now I see
And without her,
Now what would I be,
Not what I am, but I'd still be a G
I'd still be hype, I'd still shine bright
Who'd be there to hold me so tight
Who'd be there when it's lonely at night
My wife,
So right,
The love of my life

Ohh...
She's so sexy, so cool
Shes the baddest girl I've seen
I'm wondering why
I only see her in my dreams
The love of my life, she's the only one for me
My L-O-V-E Ooh
My L-O-V-E

We're so picture perfect,
I can't imagine
My life without you (L-O-V-E)
It's like I'm floating on air
Whenever you're here,
Baby come with me and I'll take you there...

She's so sexy, so cool
She's the baddest girl I've seen
I'm wondering why
I only see her in my dreams
The love of my life, she's the only one for me
My L-O-V-E Ooh
My L-O-V-E

She's so sexy, so cool
She's the baddest girl I've seen
I'm wondering why
I only see her in my dreams
The love of my life, she's the only one for me
My L-O-V-E Ooh
My L-O-V-E

L-O-V-E
L-O-V-E
L-O-V-E
L-O-V-E

She's so sexy, so cool
She's the baddest girl I've seen
I'm wondering why
I only see her in my dreams
The love of my life, she's the only one for me
My L-O-V-E Ooh
My L-O-V-E

2009-06-10T22:34:00.001+08:00

Thought that it was finally over. But guess not. Slowly, one by one people are telling me the very same phrase. Since you all felt that i changed, i have nothing to say, afterall its your opinion. But at least know, i seriously didn't change a single little bit. It's always me. Forget it i give up.

fuck life to the max.

2009-06-01T10:39:00.000+08:00

Didn't expect to get this same hurtful feeling again.

2009-05-28T23:04:00.000+08:00

Just reached home after CCA. Now gotta chiong for tomorrow's a.maths test sian. Not enough sleep at all and the H1N1 virus has just reached to 4 people in Singapore. That's scary. Right nothing much to post accept the people in KB keep bullying just because they think they big size lo and the right part of my eye is swollen already thanks to the big guy. Seriously fuck crutches. It's injuring my injured back damn it. Ok anyway take care peeps. Build up your immune system!

Guess it was all wishful thoughts that would be expected sooner or later. Ha forget it.

2009-05-28T01:23:00.000+08:00

Ok went to play soccer with jovis n the guys. We were playing when there was this insect on the court which looked like an ant and bee at the same time. Then Nahendrean used the ball n rolled over it. Damn sadistic man. Told him not to kill, he go kill. Few minutes later, more and more of them came. Then all started to kill n kill like nobody's business. Anyway we were like suddenly talking about shuffle. Then i started to do hardcore shuffle. LOL. Anyway was webcamming with you know who because she don't believe i wasn't at home. Then we danced and talked crap to her..? Haha. Then i was like ok lets take photos LOL.

Ok then had the g1 g2 blah blah lessons yesterday. Again, we were testing webcam then anyhow take photos. I seriously love the guys in my class la.

Daniel.

Sulaiman ahha.

Other part of the class. :)

o.O

My innocent buddy wahaha.

Stupid idiot go bang the table. This is called Rong Sheng. Anyway the rest are just anyhow photos.:) (the guy in purple is louis)

Ok anyway SOCCER START ALR HAHA.

Will you be my girl tonight? I'm not going to hesitate anymore.

2009-05-26T11:32:00.000+08:00

I know i am not the best but i hope that you can at the very least give me a chance. You told me not to give up on things and now i'm not going to give up. I just want to say that i'm beginning to really love you and you know who you are.

2009-05-25T18:19:00.000+08:00

Hi guys been a quite a while since i posted. Well ya went gym and swimmin wif the class peeps today. Totally bo lat le. Haha. Anyway yeah i have no idea what to blog about because nothing much is happening so far. When i have something to post, i'll definitely post. Till then, i guess this will be a dead blog already.

My dearest friend if you see this, i just want to tell you that now is the time. The stage is waiting and it is all yours. I won't be a spoilsport which means im gonna support you to do what you're trying to do now. Best of luck!

2009-05-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

Ok. It's Mother's Day today. Man. Seriously have lots of things i want to tell mummy. However just don't have the guts to do so, have no idea why haha. So ok. Firstly, i want to say, Mummy i love you alot. Really. MOST of the time you give me support in the things i try to do, and those things that you don't want me to do is because your scared that i'm going to get hurt in anyway. I still remember the time when you encouraged me when i got shit results for my PSLE. And then there was the time when you encouraged me after getting the O'level results. You've always been the pillar of support for the family. Sometimes, the 3 guys in the family likes to quarrel with you practically everyday, but it doesn't mean we love quarrelling with you. It's totally the opposite, we hate quarrelling with you. It's just the way we communicate since long long time ago and its also our way to say we love you. 3 of us are blunt people that can't sweet talk so bear with us ok. :) We know that your always feeling stress after work, so you tend to get more irritated. We will try to bear with it. By now, you can retire and enjoy life already. But because of brother and I, you have continued working, no matter how tough it is, in order to let us continue with our education. By now, you can retire and enjoy life already. I promise this time that i will study hard and give you a good life ahead. I promise. I won't be like last time anymore. I know that Daddy and you always quarrel because bro and me never make any birthday card for you in a long time and that Daddy issn't that thoughtful. But you should know him, he can't express himself well one. I have to admit, i didn't make one this year too. That's why i'm writing on the blog instead to try to make up for it. There are more that i want to say, but i just can't remember now. Wahaha. Your also always telling us that your colleague's child are so smart and obedient but only brother and I aren't, and that you always wished that we would one day change or gain at least half of your colleague's childs. Deeply in my heart i want to say, Mummy, I am so sorry that you have a child like me. Playful, refuse to study, etc. But you can't blame me, it's in my blood. :) Like i promised, i will try my best to change from now on. I also want you and daddy to be the most lovely couple ever.

Ok gonna get some rest and give mummy a good treat tomorrow=)

I'm going to make you mine, no matter how long it takes.

2009-05-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

It's really boring. Anyway. Once again i was searching the photos album and i found this 2 pictures which i feel was really cool wahaha. I love the banglahs man and the skateboarders are cool people. Actually i feel that banglahs ain't that bad. Although most are one of a kind, fucked up people that steal, there is a minority of them that really worked hard and helped singapore to become a better and cleaner city.

The Banglah Rangers!

The Cool Peeps!

The quiet night.

Been seeing this road for the past.. 10 years or even more i guess?

Vandalism!

Been thinking for awhile now. Why doesn't she want to talk to me? Is she afraid of me or what?

2009-05-09T22:32:00.000+08:00

Just reached home and its damn tiring after cca. Anyway oovoo-ed with sim and marcus because there was nothing much to do. Together we are Tom, Dick And Harry.=)

OK. We had no god damn idea what we were doing at all. Wahaha. Miss being an ass with them and missed the time we worked together. Meet up soon k.

2009-05-09T22:25:00.000+08:00

Went out to bugis with jovis, sim and sq at nite because sq wanted to buy bag and cap. So finally bought a bag and then went to slack awhile then decided to walk around bugis then went to the arcade.

Anyway, School on monday, boring like hell, don't even know what the lecturer was saying. Ok anyway night peeps. CCA's tomorrow! Looking forward to it.

2009-05-04T21:31:00.001+08:00

TODAY. I AM GOING TO TALK ABOUT SELFISH, FUCKING, CONCEITED PEOPLE THAT REFUSE TO RETURN MONEY TO PEOPLE WHO LEND THEM AND STILL GIVE ATTITUDE. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THIS WORLD. Come on, you owe people money at least have the courtesy to say it in a proper manner if you want to delay the date can? Don't have to show me FUCKED UP ATTITUDE. Since you have the money to get a laptop, a camera, a ps3, YOU STILL GOT THE CHEEK TO TELL ME YOU GOT NO MONEY TO RETURN? Few weeks is alright, but 6 months? Just who are you kidding? Hope you see this and it all gets into your head, and learn your freaking mistake. Thank You.=)

2009-04-29T17:32:00.001+08:00

Ok. 1 week plus into poly, turns out poly life issint much of a difference compared to secondary school. 1 week plus into poly and i'm not absorbing anything the lecturer is trying to say. 1 week into poly and the food is getting boring. And there Sulaiman was, YONG TAO FU YONG TAO FU all the way. Not bored ah. 1 week plus into poly, been playing l4d for the 1 week plus in poly. 1 week plus into poly, life feels damn sucky. 1 week plus into poly, hardly see secondary school friends le. 1 week plus into poly, been wondering hows farhan leg recovering. 1 week plus into poly, suddenly miss Mr. Satwant. 1 week plus into poly, lectures are getting sucky. 1 week plus into poly, explore finish the school. 1 week plus into poly, see Sulaiman get numbers from girls. 1 week plus into poly, met funny teacher Charlie. 1 week plus into poly, Rong Sheng has been saying that he will get number from Valerie Yap Sok Leng, but where is it in the end? Don't have. Talk only. Ok lah. Rong Sheng jiayou ok. 1 week plus into poly, been trying to grow taller then before. 1 week plus into poly, aven still playing dj max. 1 week plus into poly, been thinking of what to blog. 1 week plus into poly, life really sucks.

2009-04-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

E-learning day. Went to the centre to do some e-learning shit. No one gave instructions but somehow we all had a instruction passed around by dunno who. So everyone followed the instructions and do the test when we haven't even really learnt a thing. So was reading the notes and trying to answer the test. End up only got 6 out of 15. Bloody hell. Finish alr, lecturer came and ask why we go do the test when we haven't even learn anything. Then everyone nothing to say. So just carried on with lesson then Thaijin called me and said that she at NYP. So after school went to find her and Clement, my long lost primary school friend. Then dunno why she keep complaining about NYP not having this, not having that, when her school is smaller than ours lah.. So took some photos and then went home le haha.

Right. Didn't know what she was doing. Anyway years ago she was muccchhh taller then me, but now? HAHA look at how much taller i am then you! And i'm still going to grow.

2009-04-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

Right. Start of school. Met up with the class people because everyone didn't know how to go to the lecture theatre. So T1 brought us to the theatre when everyone had reached. Lesson was damn boring, and then Mister. Ricky Puru tutorial was bad too. He scolded me for wearing slippers in front of the class that i don't know lah. He said: 'Students from NYP have to dress properly, not wear slippers. Students have to wear shoes as long as your in my class. Imagine, when your in the MRT, some CEO of a company might be in front of you, they look at the way you dress, they will feel that NYP is teaching students to dress properly and it gives off a good impression. Therefore we must wear properly at all times, not wear casually.' But have to say, he's a pretty good teacher. After the lesson was our free time, eat finish le had no bloody idea what to do because we had 2 hours to spare. So we sat at the pond, started staring at the carps, and there Sulaiman was, throwing bits of tissue to feed the fish. The tissue was filled with the oil on his face lah. So he was still bored and unsatisfied, so he decided to feed the fish with his finger.

Everyone was hoping that he would fall, but too bad he didn't. After that, went to get my laptop woo! Finally. Then after that go home liao. Went on the MRT with Aven(sorry if i spelt wrongly), and he was damn PSP siao. dj max all the way haha

Ok gotta go school at 9 tomorrow.

2009-04-19T17:37:00.000+08:00

Right. IT'S DAMN FREAKING BORING. SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW AND I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M STUCK AT HOME ROTTING. EVEN CLEMENT SAYS IT'S A DUMB THING TO DO. Right had to wake up at 7.30 today to go visit the cemetry, but couldn't wake up, because i tried to entertain someone but DIDN'T APPRECIATE it lo. Neverminddd. So during the trip went to mandai, then alighted from uncle's car because he lend to my father to drive. So when i alighted, saw this uncle kick the car tire while my father was parking. Then i was wondering who, so i turn left, saw this lady, looked farmiliar, then looked behind her, saw this girl, even farmiliar. So i somehow couldn't remember so i tried to think hard for ard 30 secs and i rmbed who she was. Haha was SY. So she smiled, den i smile back lo, basic courtesy. But she keep hiding behind her sister lah. What? Think i'm gonna eat you up? No right?! then why so scared? ok lah. then after tat went separate ways den nvr see her again le. & today's weather is just HOT. DAMN IT, IS THE SUN COMING CLOSER THE EARTH OR WHAT? So couldn't take it, finally reached home, and here i am, dunno wth im doing now because its so bloody boring because OF THE #%$#@% NYP that i still haven get my laptop. 'We believe in a vibrant community to study in, so we sell our laptops for studies, and it will be on the day school starts' That's the worst bullshit heard yet. Ok anyway gonna be good for once and sleep early. =D

2009-04-17T19:49:00.000+08:00

Went to NYP today to buy some lecture notes, it was bloody heavy.-.- Right when i reached there, i got lost, again. I had no idea where to buy, and just nice i met my china buddy. Have to say, he was quite helpful, so i'll take back my comments, but there are still some that are just beyond hope. After i bought, headed back home then went to meet sim at queenstown swimming pool to swim. Damn bloody tiring when it came to real swimming, so we decided to go to the 0.9m de. Safer. Reach the pool felt that the water was different. My eyes was stinging when i opened in the water and it tasted different. So i stop swimming, instead i laid my head on the steps and slept while suntanning. Then while slacking, sim and i found ourself having a generation gap with the kids. Last time was oya beya zom a le ya, roti prata char kuay tiao, fried banana den dunno wat dunno wat. The kids were saying oya beya zom a le ya, rotia prata char kuay tiao, eat already vomit out, laksa laksa kukujiao. Why are kids so violent nowadays? Anyway hungry le we went home blah blah blah. Then i took this 145 bus which made me damn pissed off. This bloody driver drive like SHIT. Drive then keep pumping the brake, everyone was like complaining in the bus, this guy even fell on me. I mean GET YOUR BLOODY DRIVING LICENSE BEFORE U LEARN HOW TO DRIVE PASSENGERS, BLOODY ASSHOLE. Anyway, 2 more days till school reopens. Have no idea what i feel about it.

Wish you were here with me tonight.

2009-04-16T17:00:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling damn bored so i'm just gonna post anything i see. Saw the photos on my phone that sim and i took during our 2 months in Best Denki.

We were bored so we used the paint on the computer to draw. But i had no idea what it was. Some banana i think.

This was drawn by sim.

By me. Haha.

Sim and me drew this i think.

By sim. Well actually this is what practically happens when your doing customer service at best denki.

Ok this picture was during the valentine's promotion by osim. All the staff at BD that saw it also had that pervert thought. So at least i know what osim is really selling. Anyway just somehow missed working at BD.

Everytime lunch time would be eating KFC or Mac. Standard procedure for almost 1 1/2 months. Then takeaway bring up to the carpark to eat when its not allowed. But who cares? It's windy. Then got nice car only, sim will wait for owner to park car, go away, then start taking photos. I also missed the times when i took tips from customers for helping them bring down things that they bought at BD to the taxi stand. =D

Then there was this dunno what shop forgot the name, but quite famous. But their products damn ripoff.

Gonna get some sleep and on to lan later.=)

2009-04-13T19:53:00.000+08:00

Right. These few days has been boring. I was thinking for quite awhile already. Why do so many people hate Banglahs? Is it because of their skin colour? Is it because they scare people in the middle of the night? Is it because of their body odour? Is it because of their behaviour? I'm not being a racist but can anyone give me a better answer? I know most of the answers, and i can't publish it in case i get sued, so ya, hope someone can give me an answer. At the same time, was just waiting for poly to start. And its just 7 DAYS AWAY. 7 more days later means that there will not be much time for fun liao. damn $*#&. Tomorrow is orientation, dunno what type of people i'm gonna meet. What's more i'm going alone and i'm a shy boy. Day before orientation and i'm already having a fever. Hosei ah. Ok gonna get some sleep liao. Bye.

2009-04-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

Haha ok was bored then was searching inside my comp to see if there are things. Then i saw this photo.

=D oh yeah~

2009-04-09T14:56:00.000+08:00

Fm Static-Tonight

I remember the times we spend together
On those drives
We had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York
Everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
Tonight

I remember the days we spend together
Were not enough
And it used to feel like dream
Except we always woke up
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I'm falling and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait

I remember the car you were last seating
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus
And how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad
Sometimes not having you here
I say

Tonight I'm falling and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I say
Tonight I'm falling and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

11 MORE DAYS TILL SCHOOL STARTS

2009-04-09T14:41:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 10 today n met up with hong hui and sq for breakfast at LJS at tiong. After tat went to gym till 12+. After that went to Redhill market to eat. While eating, there was this old man that keep grumbling about one other old man trying to get fresh with his sisters. He talked about how he used to hold a government job and how he wanted to slap the guy. After tat hong hui said he needed to shit so went back to my house and he used the toilet so did i. While we were using the toilet SQ was using my computer to search some videos ya. HH was super high when he saw the videos then after that Sim came and we left for delta.

Went to delta to swim from 2+ to 5.45. Did some stupid things there. Went to the baby pool to slack and see the cresent girls that were there at the same time, then HH decided to buy those plastic ball to play at the pool. Played till Edward came then we swam awhile more before the lifeguard decided to talk to us because of some reason. Then HH shouted at the lifeguard saying 'No Wonder Delta No One come'. Seriously Delta suck, never go to delta. There is live wet cockroaches in the pool and the crows are drinking the water. At the same time Song Qi did some cool thing that i won't write down because i'm lazy to.

So we went to purmei after swimming to play soccer. Nothing much happened so ya. Ok man anyway, SCHOOL IS STARTING IN 12 DAYS.=)

2009-04-07T23:38:00.000+08:00

Went to orchard today to meet Felicia. She was late so i went there first. Went up to Best Denki to see the peeps because i miss them.=D There was lots of changes, its damn quiet plus everyone is starting to quit. Found out from Leonard that some girl from the CSA wrote a 6 page complain letter to the boss against my supervisor n 2 others. haha wonder if there is any error. After awhile Felicia finally came den we went to watch Fanboys. It's more for the Star Wars fans. Then after that start to rot alr, walked to PS, nth to do, went to ZONE-X then she started to play Daytona. Tried 7 times & finally managed to win. Congrats. No where to go finally decided to go to tiong to get some stuff from NTUC. Then went back n took some photos.

See No Evil, Speak No Evil, Missing The Hear.

Ok man nth to write le. Gonna get some rest. Going gym & then swimming with the S.H.E tomorrow.

Bye Peeps.

2009-04-07T22:57:00.000+08:00

Went out wif ppl from Best Denki today. Met up with Sufian and Sim at vivo at 1.30. Supposed to meet at 12 then moved on to 12.30 then was said to meet at 1.30. End up mimi turned up at 2.45? Was taking photos then accidentally deleted all then left with some haha.

The Predator Ahaha!

Took photo with my best friend=)

Hi-5! Haha sim's face reminded me of final destination.

The Sim and shamimi.

As we were walking around Sufian was like 'oh this is fun, very fun indeed'.

Damn sarcastic can.

Ok going out with Felicia tml and i wanna go back to best denki.

2009-04-04T23:25:00.000+08:00

Borreeeddd~ Went out with thaijin today. Talked about old times such as primary scl life. Met up at toa payoh. Ate Ya Kun and chatted. Then went to stairs, sit down, chat somemore. Then thaijin keep show off just because got bilingual award. Went back home at 7. Now starting to rot again. Best.

Going swimming with song qi tomorrow~

2009-04-04T00:14:00.000+08:00

Ok. There was nothing to do these few days so i was searching the net n i decided to watch Bullet For My Valentine. They really rock man. Seriously, why so many people don't like rock nowadays? It's so rythmic damn it. So there i was filling up forms hoping i could get the tickets for BMFV's concert=) So hopefully they give me a reply ya HAHA.

Anyway Rock On Man BFMV!\m/

Ok man! Am going out with Thaijin tml! Cya!

2009-03-31T17:30:00.000+08:00

Lol haha early morning went to gym with hong hui. Realised i totally no more strength le.-.- Every single equipment that hong hui use, the weight is always below mine by 4 lah. Then he asked me to keep using the 40kg one while i can only take at most 30kg lah. Haha. Met the ex-BMSS basketball players training there too. Anyway nothing much to do in life for now. So, anyone have a job tell me pleaseee. Ok shall post again when i have things to post ya.

2009-03-30T10:14:00.000+08:00

Today life turned out just fine. Early morning been asked to go to grandpa's house to take care of grandpa for roughly half and hour while the maid went to get some food. Within that period of time, i realised i learnt lots of things. Grandpa has been staring at the wall for years, hoping for people to come visit him, and yet they only come once a week. I totally understood his feelings, he's no longer smiling like he used to. Who wouldn't be lonely when ur already 89 years old and people only come visit you once a week and stoning from monday to friday? When i helped him to the toilet, he could barely walk. Taking care of him for that period of time was quite heartwrenching for me. Plus thinking about the past when he was younger, he used to take me to places to have fun although we can't communicate really well based on the language we speak, but it was so much fun at that time. And now just when i want to really chat with him, it's already quite impossible as he can't speak properly anymore. Seriously, i just hope i can convey words to you.. Grandpa I LOVE YOU. After that i checked my letterbox and guess what? I got a letter by the government to be enlisted in the air force as a PILOT. HAHA!

Oh ya. And saturday was Save The Earth day. I totally forgot haha. But did you guys played your part by switching off all lights?
Ok man! Time to get out and look for a job!

2009-03-29T00:53:00.000+08:00

Ok. Been feeling damn bored these few days. Staring at the comp and chanced upon these.=)

The Good Old Times.

Ok. Don't feel like typing anymore so enjoy.=D

Time passed in just a blink of an eye. Hope everyone could meet up soon ya.=D
Thanks ah Thaijin for sending me these photos.=)

Looking for a part-time job

2009-03-28T10:22:00.000+08:00

life is boring n i need a damn job now.